The Big Day

So I sit here and write this quick little blurb because it is just about 9:30pm and I should try to go to bed soon (as if that will happen but one can try). LOL
I have to be at the hospital at 6:00am, I think I will be one of the first people in for surgery in the morning. But at least that way I have all day to sit in a strange bed, dozing in and out, wondering who will drop in next and when. I hope some people drop in, but they better be prepared for me to look like crap and all dopey. lol
Anyhow, anxiety has been a hard monkey on my back, and with any luck it will find the furthest banana tree to climb up and not come back down. But it can feel free to share the bananas if it likes. haha After I wake up I will know what kind of recovery I will be facing. I will deal with that when it reveals itself, what else can I do. I am prepared for the worst but hoping for the best (I think...) :)

It feels like I have been in mourning every day since this all started and I want to be able to get about the business of getting on with things. Every day brings all sorts of news. I just found out that a gal who I have performed with in Tribal has just undergone her own breast cancer surgery on Friday the 2nd Feb. I haven't talked with her but I hope it all goes well. She has had a rough lot already too, without this now too.

The past month has been rough. I hope the next one is not as bad, not even close. I am greatful for the wonderful moments I have managed to drum up. Hanging out with friends and family, chatting or talking to them, going for a couple of massages. All of this has been a great help. I managed to get a bit of work done around the house, just no painting of the guest room yet. LOL oh well.

Alright. I have to go pack my bag and get some stuff set up for my cat and fish to be taken care of, tidy the kitchen a bit and the couch. Then I am going to have a shower or a bath, or BOTH! LOL

Oh, and I want a Coke! but have discovered that the cafeinne is too much for my anxious body to handle and just makes me feel like crap! :-( Damn it. Beer would be nice, or some of the red wine waiting for me in the fridge, but since there is surgery in the morning....guess that will have to wait. *sigh*

Ok. I will be back here soon. Wish me luck. May you and yours be well.