My feet are cold...

All morning and so far this afternoon my feet have been cold. I had chicken noodle soup and it only warmed me up for a few minutes and then back to being cold. Grrr. We are in the middle of a spring snow event, there is a lot of snow on the ground already and there is more to come. Some reports say up to a total of 100 cm by the time this system moves on. LOL but we need the moisture so badly I certainly won't complain. It is so beautiful out there, but the roads are wicked. I will take some pictures of the piles later, and I will have to shovel my car out today some time since I have a lab appointment at 8am tomorrow morning and I would prefer not having to fight my way to the car and into the car that early in the morning. As it is, there will be more by then anyhow, but I should get a small jump on things now before its really bad (ok, its really bad already LOL).

I don't know why my feet have been cold, they have been like that off and on for the past few days. Probably chemo side effects, as I am having other side effects that are really ticking me off. The biggest problem lately has been my stomach again. No nausea, although some days I would welcome puking, but I feel like I have eaten a huge Christmas dinner, all day, almost every day. And yet I have hardly eaten anything. I have tried all sorts of things to make it stop, including the medication I was prescribed, and none of it is working. Even fluids aren't good, but bread or other carbs seem to be the worst. And I have been sooooo tired and weak this past week. I had treatment 4 part 1 Monday the 14th and part 2 will be tomorrow on the 21st. I am not looking forward to feeling like shit again, not that I haven't felt like shit all week, but I don't want to get worse. Thursday I have an appointment in Calgary with my surgeon and then I might have a better idea of where things are headed. I don't know yet if I am looking at more chemo first or straight to surgery after this last treatment. On the one hand I don't want the surgery yet, but I also don't want anymore chemo either.

I want my life, my routine back to normal! I miss work and earning my paycheque. I am trying really hard to keep busy but with the fatigue its really been hard.

Ok, a little more griping: I sick of my neighbors, they are always banging stuff and dropping stuff on the floor or something. I am tired of people being lazy and throwing their cigarette butts in my yard, get an ash tray! or eat them. Disgusting! My car is making strange noises and is burning oil, I think it may be the fuel pump going as the car keeps hesitating when I give it gas.

Now for the good stuff:
I love the snow. I love my cat and don't know what I would do without her. I am thankful for my family and friends. I think the angel fish I got a little bit ago are cool but they need some company in the tank, I love watching them and so does Freya. I bought some flowering plants just before the snow hit and they are beautiful sitting in my living room, and the fern I got is really cute.

Ok, I think I am going to go put some socks on now. :D