Wasn't sure what to write....

So it has been a while since I was in here. Things have been busy.

I had a follow up appointment for the surgery I had in November. The surgeon removed one lymph node in my left axilla(armpit), it had remained swollen after I was stung by a wasp in August. Turns out there was cancer in there. Basically I was told not to panic as it may have all been caught in there, and doesn't necessarily mean I have cancer anywhere else in my body. I forgot to ask if they compared the cells to see if it is a recurrence or a new cancer, I will ask when I go in on the 19th of Dec. I had a bone scan yesterday, and all is well, so that is very good news. On Monday I will have a CT scan of my abdomen, get to drink that lovely chalky barium milkshake. LOL (ugggg) Then on the 19th I will meet the new Oncologist at the Cancer Clinic, not sure if the current Oncologist will be in there then or not. I guess that appointment will be to tell me what I should do next, whether they want me to change a lot more of my lifestyle or even to chemo or whatever.
It would be great if all is well and that there is nothing extraordinary I need to do. But at this point in time I don't know what to expect. Things are a bit strange now. I am worried rather than scared at this time. I am uncertain as to what my future will be and I don't know how I feel about that....you would think I would have some feelings about that but I don't right now. Maybe the shock is still blocking feelings right now, I don't know. What I do feel is that everything will be ok, but I don't know what 'ok' will turn out to be, if that makes any sense at all. :D
Being diagnosed 2 years ago was extremely stressful and frightening, this time it almost feels like I was diagnosed with pneumonia or a cold or something....no big deal, I will be fine, everything is ok now, they got all of it now, I will be fine.....sounds like desperation when it is written out like that. Hmmm.... yet it doesn't feel that way.
Boy do I hope I am right.

Work has been work as usual, although I am considering shaking things up a bit for myself. But it will have to wait for now, until I know what the immediate situation holds for me.

Been taking a break from dancing the past 2 weeks but I am itching to get going again, can't wait for January. I have been practicing this weekend for the first time really since the recital, but that is ok, needed to immerse myself in other things for a bit.

I have been reading, catching up on email and debating on when I should go do my holiday shopping....I have one gift bought so far (LOL) and many more to go. Cleaning up my house is a big priority, painting some walls would also be a good idea. And I definitely want to do more reading of my Asatru/Heathen books. I think a schedule of activity is needed so I stay on track LOL.

Yeah, so the past week has been kinda boring but hardly uneventful. :D

Just another quick update....more to come soon, I am sure.