I just ate.....

....some pizza. So I am feeling good enough to get through this if I go quick enough.

So first a quick update on the dancing.
The Worlds for Women dinner in honor of International Women's Day was good. We performed at the Medalta Potteries Historical Site here in Medicine Hat. There were the usual tight passages and time lines just as in all other performances I have done. But there were some things that were very different. Typically the audience is encouraged to get up and dance with the dancers after the performances, but we ran out of time so that was nixed. However, the dancing around the entire space to show ourselves off was there, that makes me a bit nervous. I am not used to being so close to the spectators LOL. We went out, danced around the entire open floor space then we set up to dance in the main area in the middle of the floor. The most unfortunate bit about the evening was that the lighting was terrible and there were many places in the seating where people didn't get a very good view of the performances. We were dancing in near darkness and that made some of the costumes loose their appeal since things were hardly sparkling or shining. Also, the nature of the location, an old clay factory, has terrible acoustics for using zills. They were very flat. Add to the fact we are needing to improve our technique, and it was probably the most disappointing part of our performances.
But we had fun, at least I did. It was a neat experience, once I get over the stage fright of being amongst the spectators I think I will make fewer mistakes.
So that is last Saturday in a nut shell. It was good.

Monday is a whole 'nuther ball o' wax.
Monday was my first chemo treatment. It was almost surreal going into the back, into the treatment room. On one hand I felt like I was walking my last mile and on the other it was like I was just going to get my blood drawn or the doc would just be doing a check up and off I would go. It was a strange feeling.
In the room there are a number of chairs, like gerry-chairs (not sure on the spelling), for people to sit in. For those who don't know, gerry-chairs are for people too sick to sit or even recline in a wheelchair, they are like beds on wheels but look like uncomfortable lazy-boys. They aren't too uncomfortable but not exactly a pillow top mattress set. LOL
So yeah, I picked a chair, got hooked up to some saline solution, got some anti-nausea meds and then the treatment began. There is no noticable indication that anything is happening at first, but I slowly started to develop a headache. I still have the headache, from time to time, but not too much. Once all the IV drips and the push (syringes with one drug has to be "forced" into the IV by hand rather than dripped in) are done I was able to head home.
My headache got worse, I got more and more tired and then I started to feel queasy. I ate lunch ok, but my suppertime I started to vomit. I couldn't keep anything down after that, not even water. Monday kinda sucked, even with the anti-nausea meds that I took after getting home.
Tuesday and Wednesday were hard, I was tired or sick feeling, but the puking was over thankfully. The past week I found energy to do some things, but I also slept or rested a fair bit too. I went to dance classes on Tuesday and Thursday, took breaks when I needed to. I have good days and bad days energy wise and eating wise. My appetite has slowly been coming back and I am glad for that. I certainly feel better if I have some hearty food in my stomach, most of the time, lol.
The hardest thing I am dealing with is the feeling of being hungover/drunk all week. It seems it isn't totally normal but it is also not abnormal to feel like this. I don't like it. I can deal with being tired or fatigued, but my head is so wonky I don't want to do much of anything that requires using my head. I don't want to read or watch tv or talk, but I do want to do these things. I am bored, I want to entertain myself, but I can't concentrate enough to make it worth the energy expenditure. I hope I won't be like this the whole way through treatment.

So, now on to other things. :D
I cut my hair on Wednesday. It is now just above my shoulders, layered. Everyone says it looks good, I look so young. I feel like a boy LOL. I am not missing it as much as I thought I would, but I do miss having some length. Soon though I will be missing it completely, so I hope I am used to this cut before it all falls out. It does look good on me, but since my energy is so low, I can hardly be bothered to do anything with it.
I bought some fabric to make head scarves and I will work on them this week if I can get motivated enough LOL. I have a new hat that my mom helped me pick out yesterday, so hopefully that will be good for the time being too. Also, my wig is just waiting for me to be ready for it, I will get it trimmed so I can see through the bangs, and then all will be as good as it will get until I have a full head of hair again. :D

Last night I went to the movies. Saw 300. I liked it. Wonderful storytelling. I like that it had a narrator instead of being full of dialogue. The imagery was great, the colors and style of camera work was great. Definitely great on the big screen, I am sure it will be neat at home on a good sized LCD or plasma tv too. I am glad I got to see it in the theatre. Oh, and the music was great too.

Ok, well, I am finally getting tired. Time for a break. Maybe I will go sit on the couch again, or maybe I will keep reading email. I need to do some dishes, oh and laundry too.....I need a maid. LOL